I'm done with this world

Human beings, as the self-procliamed highest existance on earth, create rules. There are laws to prevent crime. And as a homology, humans build psychiatric facility to contain people that may upset the normality and stability of society. Now, I'm one of the abnormal person expeled by my own kind of population to be kept in such facility. The reason is because there's madness within of me that the medical professions in human population call it bipolar.

Right now, I'm going to find my way getting out from here and find my own solution, which is killing myself. Nothing in this world matters anymore. This world, this society, my very own population, has abandoned me. In order to maintain the stability and sanity of human existance, I have to kill myself. I don't want myself to end up in a way that I watch in this psychiatric world everyday ... not even a chance. There's no cure to this illness. Remission is merely keeping the madness silent -- a self-denial act of the inborn madness. I'm done with all the shit!

My friends. What friends do I have anymore? I'm now a mad man with a mad mind, who only does mad things. See, madness is something unacceptable by the society. It's like a plague, and the normal action by normal human beings is to avoid the madness. Once a human being is crazy, he is no longer a human being. I had friends in the past ... but, right now, I've no friend.

My family. I never called those people my family. They may be my biological parent and sibling ...but I see no indication that I'm from this family. People who are supposed to show care and love to me, have also left me in the suffering darkness. I've no family.

The healthcare system. In medical history, there's no mercy for psychiatric patients. Being in the place of a psychiatric patient on my own, I've experienced how psychiatric patients are treated. We belong to a someway "mutated" kind of human beings. Our freedom is snatched from us by the hospital policy, again, to protect the sanity of the society. Doctors are doing just salvation work, cleaning up the mess of how madness has turned a person become. There's no hope in healcare system for people like us.

I'm done with this world.